Jing
hai Alexia. happy Spring!~
Around Charles river, it is so pretty.
8:33pmAlexia
hi jing! happy spring to you, too!
i know i went on a long walk today :)
how are you?
8:33pmJing
I fall in love with the dandy day today
the breeze
I want to wear short dress
8:34pmAlexia
:)
8:34pmJing
and enjoy the sunshine
<3
8:35pmAlexia
alison mentioned u got in the smfa summer program! congrats! that's great!! have u heard back from colleges?
8:36pmJing
yes! I got accepted to the Museum School, BUT I can't affored it
so I decide to go to Bridgewater State college
I am going to learn Fine Art
8:37pmAlexia
that's fabulous, jing!! congrats!!
8:38pmJing
hehe!~
so are you graduated?
8:39pmAlexia
almost! i am finished with my art history class on tuesday, then graduation is in may!
8:39pmJing
what would you like to do after graduate?
my graduation day is in early June
8:41pmAlexia
i am going to Turkey for 3 weeks, then i need to find a job. i will be teaching at SMFA and working at a gallery in the Fall :)
8:41pmJing
so you will be a teacher?
8:43pmAlexia
next year, yes. we'll see what comes along after that!
8:43pmJing
that is nice
would you teach performance art class?
8:44pmAlexia
yes, i am teaching a beginning class in the fall, then i am going to teach an intermediate class in the spring
are you excited about college? are your parents excited for you??
8:45pmJing
-_-
I am excited about my college life
but my parents don't
8:45pmAlexia
why?
8:45pmJing
they thing I go a little bit far away
and they don't want me to learn art
8:46pmAlexia
awww..what do they want you to study?
8:46pmJing
acounting
8:46pmAlexia
it is definitely possible to make a living at art!
you just need to be more creative in finding opportunities
8:47pmJing
i think so
so I didn't tell a lot about my major to my families
I don't even tell them about the pre-college program and all the art class I have taken at Cloud
8:48pmAlexia
really??
8:48pmJing
yeah
8:48pmAlexia
what do they think you are doing?
8:49pmJing
I told them I went to library to read books
:p
8:49pmAlexia
aww..that's hard
8:49pmJing
that is a lot of fun
I enjoy my art work
8:51pmAlexia
it's important to enjoy what you do, and you will make a great artist!! believe in your dreams and yourself :)
8:52pmJing
yeah I think when I become famous they will know!~
-_-
I enjoy it!~
8:52pmAlexia
that's the spirit!!
8:55pmAlexia
keep me posted on what you're up to!! talk to you later!
8:56pmJing
ok!
9:17pm
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
~
10:01pmJing
how tall are you/
10:01pmJames
tats a weird question lol
im 5;7
ya im short lol
10:02pmJing
I think you are as tall as Alexia
she is pretty tall
i think
10:02pmJames
lol
i think shes 5'8 or 5'9
shes lik an inch or 2 toller
10:03pmJing
I just grow a little bit
-_-
10:04pmJames
cool
10:04pmJing
but still short
like a peanut
do you want a gift? i found one for free, it is like CD
10:06pmJames
no thank u
10:06pmJing
where did you do your poem explication?
10:07pmJames
no it was for homework
10:08pmJing
for what class
10:09pmJames
english
10:09pmJing
cool
10:10pmJing
I have attend a party in Cloud, the teens did poem there, they were pretty cool
it is call Spok word
10:12pmJames is offline.
10:19pmYou are not online.
how tall are you/
10:01pmJames
tats a weird question lol
im 5;7
ya im short lol
10:02pmJing
I think you are as tall as Alexia
she is pretty tall
i think
10:02pmJames
lol
i think shes 5'8 or 5'9
shes lik an inch or 2 toller
10:03pmJing
I just grow a little bit
-_-
10:04pmJames
cool
10:04pmJing
but still short
like a peanut
do you want a gift? i found one for free, it is like CD
10:06pmJames
no thank u
10:06pmJing
where did you do your poem explication?
10:07pmJames
no it was for homework
10:08pmJing
for what class
10:09pmJames
english
10:09pmJing
cool
10:10pmJing
I have attend a party in Cloud, the teens did poem there, they were pretty cool
it is call Spok word
10:12pmJames is offline.
10:19pmYou are not online.
Jing
what kind of girl do you like?
7:10pmJames
outgoing
spontaneous
7:10pmJing
o that is what I thought
7:11pmJames
smart, funny, sexy, maybe a girl tats around my height
7:11pmJing
cool
7:11pmJames
dont take it to personal, im a really picky person
when it comes to women
7:12pmJing
yes
7:12pmJames
a lot of girls use to like me some even tried to follow me home, but i broke their hearts, because i dont want them to waste their time
7:12pmJing
haha:)
you are attractful
7:12pm
James commented on Sophia Mei's note urban dictionaryyy.
7:13pmJing
you seems like a stright person
7:13pmJames
i kno but im blunt like straight forward and a lot of people think im mean because of that
7:13pmJing
you are so funny
how come?
whatever I start to like you more then your face.
I mean admire
7:15pmJames
because i am to staright forward sometimes i say things people dont like
7:16pmJing
but when they know the reason, they just understand
I did
7:16pmJames
for example my friend asked me how did she look in her new jeans and i said horrible and then she thought i was mean
im just honest, but some ppl dont lik tat
7:16pmJing
I love honest people
That means " I love you" haha
kidding
7:21pmJing
I want to be a stright person, but some times I don't know how to do it
7:22pmJames
its lik art
7:22pmJing
how?
7:22pmJames
its all through ur feelings
7:22pmJing
you know a lot about art?
yeah, art is just natural
I just figuer out this afternoon
7:24pmJames
no
i dont tkno tat much
im creative, but im more ambitious in making money
7:25pmJing
so..what kind of "crappy" college are you applying?
7:25pmJames
r u in highschool?
7:25pmJing
yeah
7:25pmJames
BLS?
7:25pmJing
?
7:26pmJames
boston latin?
7:26pmJing
no
7:26pmJames
which?
7:26pmJing
did you think I was?
7:26pmJames
ya
7:26pmJing
why?
7:26pmJames
cause i remembered that some of ur friends tat came durin the end of the performance art program was from Boston latin
7:26pmJing
I am a new comer in the us
she is
you remember that?
we were in the dance workshop
7:28pmJames
ya
i lik observing things
but ya im applyin to 9 colleges
7:28pmJing
me too
I like observing things,too
but sometimes i was over sensitive
kind of fool
7:29pmJames
Boston college,Suffolk, Boston university, Brandeis,Clark university, hampshire college, Umass amherst, Bridgewater and NOrtheastern university
7:29pmJing
those are great colleges
7:32pmJames
lol no
7:32pmJing
what are you going to study?
7:32pmJames
if they are not my dream colleges than they are good colelges
iono
7:33pmJing
?
it takes some time for me to understand the way you write
7:34pmJames
iono=i dont know
but i have 2 go
i hav a lot of homework
7:34pmJing
ok
7:34pmJames
bye
7:34pmJing
thank you
88
7:36pm
what kind of girl do you like?
7:10pmJames
outgoing
spontaneous
7:10pmJing
o that is what I thought
7:11pmJames
smart, funny, sexy, maybe a girl tats around my height
7:11pmJing
cool
7:11pmJames
dont take it to personal, im a really picky person
when it comes to women
7:12pmJing
yes
7:12pmJames
a lot of girls use to like me some even tried to follow me home, but i broke their hearts, because i dont want them to waste their time
7:12pmJing
haha:)
you are attractful
7:12pm
James commented on Sophia Mei's note urban dictionaryyy.
7:13pmJing
you seems like a stright person
7:13pmJames
i kno but im blunt like straight forward and a lot of people think im mean because of that
7:13pmJing
you are so funny
how come?
whatever I start to like you more then your face.
I mean admire
7:15pmJames
because i am to staright forward sometimes i say things people dont like
7:16pmJing
but when they know the reason, they just understand
I did
7:16pmJames
for example my friend asked me how did she look in her new jeans and i said horrible and then she thought i was mean
im just honest, but some ppl dont lik tat
7:16pmJing
I love honest people
That means " I love you" haha
kidding
7:21pmJing
I want to be a stright person, but some times I don't know how to do it
7:22pmJames
its lik art
7:22pmJing
how?
7:22pmJames
its all through ur feelings
7:22pmJing
you know a lot about art?
yeah, art is just natural
I just figuer out this afternoon
7:24pmJames
no
i dont tkno tat much
im creative, but im more ambitious in making money
7:25pmJing
so..what kind of "crappy" college are you applying?
7:25pmJames
r u in highschool?
7:25pmJing
yeah
7:25pmJames
BLS?
7:25pmJing
?
7:26pmJames
boston latin?
7:26pmJing
no
7:26pmJames
which?
7:26pmJing
did you think I was?
7:26pmJames
ya
7:26pmJing
why?
7:26pmJames
cause i remembered that some of ur friends tat came durin the end of the performance art program was from Boston latin
7:26pmJing
I am a new comer in the us
she is
you remember that?
we were in the dance workshop
7:28pmJames
ya
i lik observing things
but ya im applyin to 9 colleges
7:28pmJing
me too
I like observing things,too
but sometimes i was over sensitive
kind of fool
7:29pmJames
Boston college,Suffolk, Boston university, Brandeis,Clark university, hampshire college, Umass amherst, Bridgewater and NOrtheastern university
7:29pmJing
those are great colleges
7:32pmJames
lol no
7:32pmJing
what are you going to study?
7:32pmJames
if they are not my dream colleges than they are good colelges
iono
7:33pmJing
?
it takes some time for me to understand the way you write
7:34pmJames
iono=i dont know
but i have 2 go
i hav a lot of homework
7:34pmJing
ok
7:34pmJames
bye
7:34pmJing
thank you
88
7:36pm
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
态度
Andrea 在那边很high的鼓励我, 说我完成的很好. 我却很平静. 因为以我现在的等级, 我觉得别人的称赞多半是给我的鼓励, 让我觉得有点心酸, 所以表情很平静. 这也是不礼貌的行为.
对于别人的鼓励, 我应该随声附和, 这才是一个初学者该有的姿态. 别人的鼓励更应该接受, 否则那不就很没礼貌?! 因为我还并没有很优秀, 尽管我希望得到的是景仰与崇拜, 但我现在还不是.
相比之下, 鼓励应该比仰慕珍贵吧!~ 鼓励是一种关怀与爱; 仰慕, 是相距太远的遥望与赞叹. 当还被鼓励的时候, 说明还有进步的空间; 也许被仰慕的时候, 我会真的失去方向!~
对于别人的鼓励, 我应该随声附和, 这才是一个初学者该有的姿态. 别人的鼓励更应该接受, 否则那不就很没礼貌?! 因为我还并没有很优秀, 尽管我希望得到的是景仰与崇拜, 但我现在还不是.
相比之下, 鼓励应该比仰慕珍贵吧!~ 鼓励是一种关怀与爱; 仰慕, 是相距太远的遥望与赞叹. 当还被鼓励的时候, 说明还有进步的空间; 也许被仰慕的时候, 我会真的失去方向!~
狠狠爱
跟James的认识, 是在Performance Art Workshop, 我们在一起相处了三个星期, 其实只有六天. It's no way that I was going to fall for him for such a short time. 开始我并不喜欢他, but later I did. 不知道出于什么原因, 我喜欢他了. 从去年的夏天到现在.
自从workshop结束之后, 我再也找不到他. 直到现在我也没再见到过他. 对他的印象定格在他在街角的回眸.
前不久在facebook 上找到他, 我决定要告诉他, 我想要告诉他.
"Can I date you?"
在当天, 我得到了答复, 一个让我措手不及的答复, 一个让我瞬间窒息的答复.
"I am sorry but I am not interested in you. I am interested in another girl or maybe girls."
在新年的前夕, 我就这样被拒绝了.
开始与结束, 只在呼吸之间. 那么直接, 那么突然.
我的第一次表白......
自卑感在一瞬间袭来. 我不知道接下来怎么办, 没遇到这样的情况, 手足无措. 但心里是难过的. 原来被拒绝, 是这样子的.
我决定告诉我的老师, 她知道这个事情, 她也许可以给我一些意见.
Jing: "I was rejusted by James!~"
Alexia:" He rejusted you? How?"
Jing:" He said '......' He was so direct!"
Alexia:"That's ok- I know it's hard, but it's better to know where you stand, right? Don't worry!
You'll find someone.
Jing:" I don't dare to any more. That's painful."
Alexia:"Don't take it personally:) it's all about things happening at the right time."
这番劝导打动了我. 也许真的应该这样吧. 对的事情要发生在对的时间.
经历了这次, 我也反省过了, 意识到以往的行为是多么不能让人理解. 明明有喜欢人家, 却装作毫不在乎, 有时甚至让别人难堪, 装着清高, 态度那么不友好, 那么不真诚, 想想都觉得惭愧, 对过往的自己, 不感面对和正视自己的情感, 感到深深的愧疚和羞耻. 这就是报应吧!
刚得知这个答复之后, 我开始对自己不确定了. 我想应该是我自己的错吧, 是我不够好, 所以他才不接受我. 我什么都不如人家. Passion sinked to the bottom of my heart. 会觉得很自卑, 觉得都是自己的不对.
在他的回复后面, 我不敢再回复, 觉得自己应该退开了, 应该认命了, 应该隐到不被他看到的角落, 默默的承受. 可是心里面真的是这样觉得吗? 为什么受到伤害还要隐藏, 要怎样装可怜? 我需要这样的同情? I am not going to fool myself any more. 我需要让他知道我的感受, 即使不被接受, 我希望我可以坦然的面对.
"I am sorry to say this, you may going to hate me. I like you!~ Even though you say no, I like you James, I like you! I just let you know that I like you!"
我这是粘人的吗? 我没有, 我只想让他知道, 即使不被接受, 我也想让他知道. 他有不喜欢我的自由, 但他不能阻止我喜欢他. 因为那是我的自由.
如果这是Game, 那么我赢了. 我没有再懦弱的退缩,或自暴自弃, 我不再犹豫, 不再伤感, 不再装深沉, 不再扮郁闷. 我不再怀疑自己. 他不接受我也许也是我不够好, 但依旧有喜欢我的朋友, 还有我的老师, 说明我并不差劲. 我也知道了我还应该不断地提高自己. 我这是成长的表现吧!~
以前总是自恋的觉得别人在暗恋我(现在说出来真是有些难为情), 自己也没有多优秀. 对别人的问候也总是不理会, 自视清高, 装做不在乎, 我是疯子. 这样真的很没礼貌!~
我想要说 , 我要用真诚对待自己的每一份感情, 微笑接纳每个与我生命有交集的人.
自从workshop结束之后, 我再也找不到他. 直到现在我也没再见到过他. 对他的印象定格在他在街角的回眸.
前不久在facebook 上找到他, 我决定要告诉他, 我想要告诉他.
"Can I date you?"
在当天, 我得到了答复, 一个让我措手不及的答复, 一个让我瞬间窒息的答复.
"I am sorry but I am not interested in you. I am interested in another girl or maybe girls."
在新年的前夕, 我就这样被拒绝了.
开始与结束, 只在呼吸之间. 那么直接, 那么突然.
我的第一次表白......
自卑感在一瞬间袭来. 我不知道接下来怎么办, 没遇到这样的情况, 手足无措. 但心里是难过的. 原来被拒绝, 是这样子的.
我决定告诉我的老师, 她知道这个事情, 她也许可以给我一些意见.
Jing: "I was rejusted by James!~"
Alexia:" He rejusted you? How?"
Jing:" He said '......' He was so direct!"
Alexia:"That's ok- I know it's hard, but it's better to know where you stand, right? Don't worry!
You'll find someone.
Jing:" I don't dare to any more. That's painful."
Alexia:"Don't take it personally:) it's all about things happening at the right time."
这番劝导打动了我. 也许真的应该这样吧. 对的事情要发生在对的时间.
经历了这次, 我也反省过了, 意识到以往的行为是多么不能让人理解. 明明有喜欢人家, 却装作毫不在乎, 有时甚至让别人难堪, 装着清高, 态度那么不友好, 那么不真诚, 想想都觉得惭愧, 对过往的自己, 不感面对和正视自己的情感, 感到深深的愧疚和羞耻. 这就是报应吧!
刚得知这个答复之后, 我开始对自己不确定了. 我想应该是我自己的错吧, 是我不够好, 所以他才不接受我. 我什么都不如人家. Passion sinked to the bottom of my heart. 会觉得很自卑, 觉得都是自己的不对.
在他的回复后面, 我不敢再回复, 觉得自己应该退开了, 应该认命了, 应该隐到不被他看到的角落, 默默的承受. 可是心里面真的是这样觉得吗? 为什么受到伤害还要隐藏, 要怎样装可怜? 我需要这样的同情? I am not going to fool myself any more. 我需要让他知道我的感受, 即使不被接受, 我希望我可以坦然的面对.
"I am sorry to say this, you may going to hate me. I like you!~ Even though you say no, I like you James, I like you! I just let you know that I like you!"
我这是粘人的吗? 我没有, 我只想让他知道, 即使不被接受, 我也想让他知道. 他有不喜欢我的自由, 但他不能阻止我喜欢他. 因为那是我的自由.
如果这是Game, 那么我赢了. 我没有再懦弱的退缩,或自暴自弃, 我不再犹豫, 不再伤感, 不再装深沉, 不再扮郁闷. 我不再怀疑自己. 他不接受我也许也是我不够好, 但依旧有喜欢我的朋友, 还有我的老师, 说明我并不差劲. 我也知道了我还应该不断地提高自己. 我这是成长的表现吧!~
以前总是自恋的觉得别人在暗恋我(现在说出来真是有些难为情), 自己也没有多优秀. 对别人的问候也总是不理会, 自视清高, 装做不在乎, 我是疯子. 这样真的很没礼貌!~
我想要说 , 我要用真诚对待自己的每一份感情, 微笑接纳每个与我生命有交集的人.
Monday, December 22, 2008
无法忍受
无法忍受
房间乱的有一段时间了, 一直懒得整理, 也就一直乱着. 其实整理了, 一天之后又是恢复原样.
自己也知道自己不是一个很有条理的人. 看着乱乱的房间想要整理时大脑一片空白. 东西太多, 都乱乱地放着.
具体有什么东西呢? 平时上街看到商店里的杂志啊, 就抱回来, 看到小纸条啊, 有设计的名片啊, 也拿, 广告画也拿, 宣传报纸也拿, 导游信息也拿, 去别人的毕业的艺术展, 酒瓶的软木塞也拿, 去一次日本壽司店, 那个装筷子的有该店logo的也拿, 在路上看到的树叶啊杂草啊也拿......
攒着的这些在别人看来毫无用处的东西, 就是不舍得丢, 想到以后要是想到弄点东西的时候应该用的上吧, 攒着攒着.
其实我从小就这样, 一直这样, 无法改变的. 我会羡慕那些整洁的人. 我就特别羡慕小裴, 跟她同桌的时候, 她的座位永远都是干净整洁的. 受她影响学了一段时间的整理, 跟她分开之后又乱了. 着方面我真的只是学样罢了. 就像身体里的血不能被逆转一样, 生来如此的, 强求不来.
有时侯很享受乱乱的房间, 在乱堆里翻找东西有很多乐趣, 有时候找不到就觉得自己很可笑的.房间乱不整理东西也找不到, 那不是自作自受?! "东西在哪里拿的就放回哪里就不会乱了!" 是这样的吗?可我的思绪就不能往一处去啊, 拿了的东西是哪里顺手就放哪里的, 就不记得它原来是属于哪里的了. 或者说它原来该属于的地方是我整理的时候强制规定的, 而根本不是它想要被放置的地方吧!
最近终于想要整理是因为事情实在太多太烦了, 申请大学和预备大学课程的文件一放到那个垃圾堆里, 就不记得哪些是做好的, 哪些还需要修改的, 甚至会找不到那些文件袋. 冬天要买衣服, 过圣诞节要给别人买礼物, 雪天想给自己买个雨靴,还有一些乱七八糟的吃的东西. 计划表和帐单往垃圾堆里一丢, 就不记得自己买过什么, 花过多少钱, 还有什么是需要买的, 还有多少钱剩.
最近还有点要超支的不详预感, 因为到这边什么都没有, 什么都想买, 想起以前在家哪有这样花钱的, 几乎每个月的50元都可以攒的下来, 有很多后备资金. 可现在钱总觉得不够, 自己也没有工作, 妈妈也不想让我去工作, 怕影响学习, 我想明年暑假应该可以找一份工作来干干. 希望可以在面包店工作. 这个还要打听一下行情. 总的来说不太喜欢"打工"这个词, 还有"工作" 也不是很喜欢, 因为会联想到那些每天像机器一样的, 运作同样程序的人. 麻木的, 不进取的. 可能是偏见吧!~说到底我也是要打工啊, 给自己赚点零花钱嘛!
不多说了, 搞清洁吧, 搞清洁吧, 也尽量把自己捡垃圾的习惯改改.
房间乱的有一段时间了, 一直懒得整理, 也就一直乱着. 其实整理了, 一天之后又是恢复原样.
自己也知道自己不是一个很有条理的人. 看着乱乱的房间想要整理时大脑一片空白. 东西太多, 都乱乱地放着.
具体有什么东西呢? 平时上街看到商店里的杂志啊, 就抱回来, 看到小纸条啊, 有设计的名片啊, 也拿, 广告画也拿, 宣传报纸也拿, 导游信息也拿, 去别人的毕业的艺术展, 酒瓶的软木塞也拿, 去一次日本壽司店, 那个装筷子的有该店logo的也拿, 在路上看到的树叶啊杂草啊也拿......
攒着的这些在别人看来毫无用处的东西, 就是不舍得丢, 想到以后要是想到弄点东西的时候应该用的上吧, 攒着攒着.
其实我从小就这样, 一直这样, 无法改变的. 我会羡慕那些整洁的人. 我就特别羡慕小裴, 跟她同桌的时候, 她的座位永远都是干净整洁的. 受她影响学了一段时间的整理, 跟她分开之后又乱了. 着方面我真的只是学样罢了. 就像身体里的血不能被逆转一样, 生来如此的, 强求不来.
有时侯很享受乱乱的房间, 在乱堆里翻找东西有很多乐趣, 有时候找不到就觉得自己很可笑的.房间乱不整理东西也找不到, 那不是自作自受?! "东西在哪里拿的就放回哪里就不会乱了!" 是这样的吗?可我的思绪就不能往一处去啊, 拿了的东西是哪里顺手就放哪里的, 就不记得它原来是属于哪里的了. 或者说它原来该属于的地方是我整理的时候强制规定的, 而根本不是它想要被放置的地方吧!
最近终于想要整理是因为事情实在太多太烦了, 申请大学和预备大学课程的文件一放到那个垃圾堆里, 就不记得哪些是做好的, 哪些还需要修改的, 甚至会找不到那些文件袋. 冬天要买衣服, 过圣诞节要给别人买礼物, 雪天想给自己买个雨靴,还有一些乱七八糟的吃的东西. 计划表和帐单往垃圾堆里一丢, 就不记得自己买过什么, 花过多少钱, 还有什么是需要买的, 还有多少钱剩.
最近还有点要超支的不详预感, 因为到这边什么都没有, 什么都想买, 想起以前在家哪有这样花钱的, 几乎每个月的50元都可以攒的下来, 有很多后备资金. 可现在钱总觉得不够, 自己也没有工作, 妈妈也不想让我去工作, 怕影响学习, 我想明年暑假应该可以找一份工作来干干. 希望可以在面包店工作. 这个还要打听一下行情. 总的来说不太喜欢"打工"这个词, 还有"工作" 也不是很喜欢, 因为会联想到那些每天像机器一样的, 运作同样程序的人. 麻木的, 不进取的. 可能是偏见吧!~说到底我也是要打工啊, 给自己赚点零花钱嘛!
不多说了, 搞清洁吧, 搞清洁吧, 也尽量把自己捡垃圾的习惯改改.
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